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i can't talk about being suicidal because there is nothing anyone can say that helps the feeling fully go away. it always comes back, and people get tired.

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Published: June 6, 2026 20:06

if this ends badly, then i know the ending is short & bittersweet. if this does miraculously work out, we'll see how long the rest goes

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Published: June 6, 2026 20:05

good or bad i have the ending now

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Published: June 6, 2026 19:54

ive never been closer than this

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Published: June 6, 2026 19:51

day 1 with my david lynch tattoo and i alr had some insufferable man ask me to list his films. list 3 women who've spoken to you

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Published: June 6, 2026 18:24

i hate what hope has done to me

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Published: June 6, 2026 18:23

starting a cult sounds better than dying

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Published: June 6, 2026 18:23

"you deserve better" well it's not a matter of deserve, it's a matter of what is. and reality is some people just aren't made to have good lives or caring people

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Published: June 6, 2026 18:21

i wish i had never fallen in love again. this is going to end the same as always

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Published: June 6, 2026 18:21

i'm so angry at myself for having hope again that i could ever have something so soft

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Published: June 6, 2026 18:21

more than anything im angry at myself for being so naive

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Published: June 6, 2026 18:21

i already was going to die before this happened

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Published: June 6, 2026 17:32

caught her reading the Greek Magical Papyri (she casting spells)

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Published: June 6, 2026 09:32

I used to think i was a very open person but didn't realize i actually kept so much locked away because i feared it would be too overwhelming

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Published: June 6, 2026 08:44

i wish i felt as beautiful as people tell me i am

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Published: June 6, 2026 08:32

why am i so hard to love jfc

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Published: June 5, 2026 19:29

i don't think i could ever accept love even if i received it

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Published: June 5, 2026 15:49

gonna go do shrooms and watch Backrooms

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Published: June 5, 2026 15:48

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Published: June 5, 2026 14:28

3 hours in to the tattoo and i finally get to feel that good pain omg

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Published: June 5, 2026 12:37

always remember to bring a phone charger to your tattoo appointment btw (i forgot)

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Published: June 5, 2026 11:59

please please please let me get what i want, fuck it would really be the first time

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Published: June 5, 2026 11:52

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Published: June 5, 2026 11:37

I genuinely need to stop myself from falling apart when i feel like this for someone i tend to genuinely go off the deep end and do REALLY DUMB SHIT PLEASE I CANT DO DUMB SHITT i cannot blackout or relapse

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Published: June 5, 2026 11:33

i need to find my tattoo gun

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Published: June 5, 2026 11:32

i fear i may be past my bender days but i can feel one brewing

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Published: June 5, 2026 11:32

bestie and i are going thru similar relationship shit and i can feel a crazy eurosummer bender brewing. gonna sleep on beaches in spain and get blackout

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Published: June 5, 2026 11:32

WHAT DID THEY MEAN THEY THINK I'LL HURT THEMMM they are going to genuinely end me like

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Published: June 5, 2026 11:25

being hot won't make you any less unwanted btw ask me how i know

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Published: June 5, 2026 11:21

i wish i could still feel pain bc i liked getting tattoos

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Published: June 5, 2026 11:21

nothing more ironic than a masochist who can't feel pain

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Published: June 5, 2026 07:36

getting a 2nd tramp stamp that says "directed by David Lynch" today

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Published: June 4, 2026 11:48

yesterday i got so sad abt lesbian bs i literally had to sit in a field and touch grass then i fell into a river and it started raining

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Published: June 4, 2026 07:42

i cannot be seen and loved

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Published: June 4, 2026 07:42

Nimashkawiziin waabandamigooyaan miinawaa zaagi'igooyaan

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Published: June 3, 2026 22:59

i wish i had time off of work so i could go to the psych ward tbh

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Published: June 3, 2026 22:59

i might say fuck it and book a backpacking trip to some fucking random place next month so i don't commit

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Published: June 3, 2026 22:58

there comes a point i get so sad that rage turns inwards and i tear myself apart

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Published: June 3, 2026 22:53

used and used and used but never enough to be wanted

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Published: June 3, 2026 22:52

i hate how much i get hit on and yet i still feel like a desperate fucking loser trying to get anyone to want me for more than my looks

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Published: June 3, 2026 21:37

people's kindness hurts me a lot. all the compliments and the support im genuinely not used to it and weirdly its like i can't accept it because it doesn't change the isolation, burdens or pain of my reality. just rubs salt in the wound.

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Published: June 3, 2026 21:34

i hate the way i look so much i want to delete everything more often than not

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Published: June 3, 2026 21:33

idk why i thought i could ever have something different. something so soft

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Published: June 3, 2026 17:45

im so normal about feelings of love and intimacy actually im fine

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Published: June 3, 2026 17:45

i think ive been dead a long time

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Published: June 3, 2026 14:41

you know what for someone who was locked in dog cages as a child and forced to eat garbage im acting incredibly normal

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Published: June 3, 2026 14:40

my life feels like a fucking cosmic joke

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Published: June 3, 2026 14:40

im terrified of relationships and connections because ive never been shown a healthy form of love in my life. i don't even know what that looks like and im afraid of ruining things because of it

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Published: June 3, 2026 14:39

idk if i even want love i just need someone to just want to be there for me. for all parts of me not just the easy parts

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Published: June 3, 2026 14:37

idk how to answer the question "how are you" because the answer is never good

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Published: June 3, 2026 14:36

all my problems stem from having to had survive serbian horror film levels of trauma alone from childhood, again and again and the understanding that it'll always be you in the end, alone

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Published: June 3, 2026 14:35

i hate people that try to use spiritually to rationalize suffering. wth is a "victim mindset"

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Published: June 3, 2026 14:30

i can't be happy without the crushing weight of trauma suffocating me again

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Published: June 3, 2026 14:30

this'll fall apart just like everything else and this time i genuinely won't be able to get back up

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Published: June 2, 2026 16:28

HAPPY PRIDEE im going on an Italian lesbian vacation for a few days next week

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Published: June 2, 2026 14:25

Lesbian italian summer omfg

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Published: June 2, 2026 14:24

GUESS WHOS GOING TO SARDINIA NEXT WEEK

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Published: June 2, 2026 13:58

its like the hair dye calmed me down

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Published: June 2, 2026 08:24

i think i don't share the things that suffocate me the most, about the trafficking and sa because its just...too much even for me. Its not fair to expect others to have to carry that burden even if its killing me inside to keep it all in

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Published: June 2, 2026 08:20

i really think im going to have to start talking more openly about things before it kills me but i am so afraid people won't believe me or won't understand or won't care

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Published: June 2, 2026 08:05

its easier for me to write certain things than speak them. a lot of what i write ive never even had the strength to say aloud to myself

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Published: June 2, 2026 08:04

im so used to being treated like garbage, like something worthless and disposable. the trafficking and torture, being forced to eat garbage as a child and homeless as an adult, being spat on sleeping on the side of the road. something like, love?…

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Published: June 2, 2026 07:18

i don't want to die, but i genuinely don't know how to live

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Published: June 2, 2026 07:09

idk why now in my life all these memories are starting to resurface...usually in the past with flashbacks they disappear almost immediately after, but lately ive been remembering everything. and it's horrible. for the first time im starting to see the…

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Published: June 2, 2026 07:06

i had one of the worst flashbacks ive had in 20 years last night and broke down crying in front of them...and i still can't tell them why

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Published: June 2, 2026 05:32

I'm supposed to start an intensive 6 week IV ketamine treatment program for cptsd soon but won't be able to afford the time off work. apologies in advance if i start to get weird

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Published: June 1, 2026 20:31

it's so incredibly difficult right now being in such an intimate connection without any understanding of what it means, bad memories keep coming back...some after decades. i don't know who to talk to and im still waiting for a therapist

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Published: June 1, 2026 20:29

i don't think I'll be okay this time

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Published: June 1, 2026 20:29

all ive ever been good for is my body. no one ever wants more than that, or what i can provide them

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Published: June 1, 2026 13:44

Yeah back to it even on shrooms so idk what even helps anymore [contains quote post or other embedded content]

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Published: June 1, 2026 11:54

i definitely have a language kink i think

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Published: June 1, 2026 10:56

tbh financially speaking i might have to go back to doing spellwork/rituals, but fuck love spells idc I would only consider going back to doing curses

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Published: June 1, 2026 10:50

i thought i would be able to take time off from work for the first time in 11 years (homelessness not included) but turns out i cannot afford to thanks to paying for my cousins immigration, so.

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Published: June 1, 2026 10:48

everyone who got the group favor ritual can you please email me your reviews, a lot of you already received your requests so...yeah thanks.

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Published: June 1, 2026 08:28

chanting spells to the sun good morning

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Published: June 1, 2026 07:32

had my first kiss on shrooms yesterday 10/10 transcendent experience

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Published: June 1, 2026 07:31

gods their voice is so hot i just sit there staring and listening and kicking my feet i s2g

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Published: May 31, 2026 10:26

idk im just so used to being thrown away by people after im done being useful to them i can't imagine having anything else

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Published: May 31, 2026 10:24

really preparing myself for the biggest heartbreak of my life with this one because i know they'll end up moving away

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Published: May 31, 2026 10:05

it's strange, having been treated as garbage most of my life. through the trafficking and homelessness...suddenly being with someone who doesn't treat me that way, it feels like I'm new again idk how to explain it

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Published: May 31, 2026 09:38

i hate being such a sad person i want to be happy

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Published: May 31, 2026 09:36

waking up in their arms makes me forget all the bad for a moment

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Published: May 30, 2026 17:18

i genuinely can't stop thinking about dying its been months

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Published: May 30, 2026 16:30

sitting here unkissed. when will it end

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Published: May 30, 2026 12:54

i want to kiss them so badly but im afraid im being too much

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Published: May 30, 2026 09:32

really trying to work thu my bullshit ptsd problems about intimacy and worthlessness on my own without making it a problem for my partners

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