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Published: January 13, 2025 03:44

Giving this so-called “sleep” thing another go

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Published: January 13, 2025 03:29

Ah the cat has found me in my dressing gown which always sends her into a kneading frenzy

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Published: January 13, 2025 03:24

What is the silliest word in the English language? For me it’s “pantaloons”, both the word and the things it refers to are so silly they make me giggle just thinking about them

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Published: January 13, 2025 03:19

I just did a sleep meditation which did not help switch my mind off but did produce an almost out of body experience of weightlessness and tingling in the complete darkness. Trippy

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Published: January 13, 2025 02:20

I was a little anxious last night which made me tired early, so I missed #3GoodThings 1) My nicest, softest pyjamas were ready to wear 2) I whacked the weasels and was brave 3) I made soup at lunchtime and our favourite dinner in the evening Now if only…

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Published: January 12, 2025 18:06

Time to cook! It’s our absolute favourite chicken with leeks, apples and cider, served with mashed potatoes, carrots and savoy cabbage. We have no dessert, which is a bit tragic #food

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Published: January 12, 2025 17:59

I have spent WAYYYYYY too much on clothes for next month’s holiday but we’re going somewhere posh and there’ll be a fancy dinner

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Published: January 12, 2025 16:28

The Insidious Weasels of Self-Doubt told me not to bother looking for alternative PhDs in case I don’t get my fellowship - it’s pointless, there’s not enough time, my topic is too weird, etc etc. But I defied them! And contacted some potential supervisors.…

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Published: January 12, 2025 13:45

Tom got out some aged Gouda called Old Amsterdam. Now I can’t get that annoying song about mice and windmills out of my head

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Published: January 12, 2025 12:44

Soup’s on!

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Published: January 12, 2025 11:41

Good morning, this is my second attempt at getting up. I have stuff I’m supposed to do today, but I’m resistant 😂 1st: buy bread. 2nd: make soup. Those I can cope with. It’s everything else. Anyway the sun is shining so my walk into town should be nice.…

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Published: January 11, 2025 22:06

#3GoodThings 1) Tapas and good conversation for dinner 2) Some of the clothes I ordered online for next month’s holiday actually fit well (I’ve returned lots of others) 3) I’ve just put Bircher muesli in the fridge so we’ll have a nice breakfast tomorrow…

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Published: January 11, 2025 16:09

I’m baking a large Bramley apple to make THIS for breakfast tomorrow https://theguardian.com/food/2025/jan/05/nigel-slaters-recipes-for-baked-apple-bircher-muesli-and-date-and-raisin-loaf

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Published: January 11, 2025 16:04

My boomer husband had never heard of George’s Marvellous Medicine. When I read him a list of the ingredients he was absolutely horrified and said it was encouraging children to play with poisons. All us Gen X kids played with poisons! We were fine!

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Published: January 11, 2025 13:13

Plan: 1) Nap 2) Wash the dishes 3) Bake some cooking apples to go in Bircher muesli 4) Try on the clothes in the online order I just picked up 5) Go out for dinner Fascinating reading, right?

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Published: January 11, 2025 12:15

Sandwich run successful and I was so excited about it that I ate it as soon as we got home at 12pm. I think I need to get a life

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Published: January 11, 2025 09:25

Good morning! Going to a bigger town today to run a few errands, we’ll treat ourselves to M&S sandwiches for lunch. The trick is to find the window just after they’ve put the sandwiches out before they’re snapped up! What are your plans for the day?

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Published: January 10, 2025 23:02

I’ve got Tom into listening to my sleep stories with me if we go to bed at the same time. This gives me a great sense of cosiness, lying in the dark enjoying a comforting story until we drift off to sleep. Tonight’s is going to be about exploring the Bay…

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Published: January 10, 2025 22:12

#3GoodThings 1) I’ve had minimal anxiety again today 2) I finished a critical work task comfortably within the deadline (a wee bit stressful, but I’m OK) 3) I had a lovely group Zoom with my friends from 6th form and we made a plan for them to come and…

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Published: January 10, 2025 20:37

OK school friends chat is go. I can do this!

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Published: January 10, 2025 19:51

Waiting to find out if my school friends are around for a Zoom. We had a tentative plan but only 3/4 have confirmed this evening. I *think* I want to go, I’m trying not to get anxious about it because there is NO NEED because they are DEAR OLD FRIENDS and…

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Published: January 10, 2025 19:28

@smitchalot.bsky.social yayyyy!

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Published: January 10, 2025 16:10

Hmmm, I need a lil snack as my brain has been working v v hard. What shall I have?

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Published: January 10, 2025 15:48

Right that’s the expanded draft of my fellowship application sent to my manager with my research plan flowchart and Gantt chart. There are some sections that I honestly don’t know what they mean, but my manager will, so I’ve just sort of written “help”…

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Published: January 10, 2025 13:53

It’s so chilly today, I’m wearing three layers. Toms just setting the fire, so when I come out of my office at 5pm downstairs should be lovely and toasty. Considering a hot water bottle for my office though

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Published: January 10, 2025 13:21

Just been round to the neighbours’ to be shown how to feed their chickens and collect the eggs, as the humans are going skiing for a week and we’re on Chicken Duty. It’s not too onerous as they put themselves to bed at dusk and their house locks them in…

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Published: January 10, 2025 10:22

Just read the sentence, “This photograph was taken 20 years ago, back in 2005.” Back?? 20 years ago? Surely 20 years ago is the 80s?? #GenX

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Published: January 10, 2025 09:28

Good morning, I didn’t sleep too badly which is fortunate as I really have to focus at work today. It’s a chilly morning, weather app says “feel like” -3°. I want to run but we live somewhere outside town where the pavements are not gritted and I think it…

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Published: January 9, 2025 22:08

#3GoodThings 1) a better sleep which set me up for a much better mental health day and a less anxious evening 2) a walk in a smattering of snow under blue skies 3) I was able to watch a film with Tom this evening, the touching, funny, bittersweet The…

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Published: January 9, 2025 17:14

There is an electrician here trying to fix something. I can’t work or workout as the electricity keeps randomly going on and off (yes I know, it’s probably not random, I’m sure he’s a highly skilled progressional). So I’ve abandoned any attempt at doing…

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Published: January 9, 2025 14:28

Had therapy. In view of my state of mind over the past week she wants me to make a safety plan. I am very resistant to this idea

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Published: January 9, 2025 08:52

It’s snowed/hailed here this morning, the streets are now white and the cat is hating it and running madly thing to get back indoors. I’ve decided it will be too slippery for my planned outdoor run, I’ll keep it to a brisk walk. The sun is low and the sky…

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Published: January 9, 2025 08:39

Good morning, after my hot chocolate and benzos intervention I got a better chunk of sleep and feel more rested and less desperate. Meeting with my manager this morning, therapy at lunchtime. What’s on your agenda?

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Published: January 9, 2025 02:02

Insomnia again. This time I am trying a different tactic - hot chocolate, diazepam and reading. Worth a shot

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Published: January 8, 2025 20:51

I feel delicate but no anxiety attack. I’m still ready for sleep super early though. Here are my #3GoodThings 1) I had a nice cuddle with the cat in the night 2) I bumped into two lovely people I know in the lane 3) I cooked a new recipe for dinner and…

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Published: January 8, 2025 20:11

Plan: eat dinner, meditate BEFORE the anxiety sets in, see if I can pick up the film I had to abandon yesterday. But I feel quite good so far and I don’t want to risk the film triggering me by association. So I think I’ll read, Tom will have to watch it…

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Published: January 8, 2025 16:01

Just gearing myself up to hop on the exercise bike. It really would help #fitness

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Published: January 8, 2025 15:51

Quite pleased with my research process flowchart #PhDSky #AcademicSky

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Published: January 8, 2025 13:54

Really need to do some focussed work this afternoon. Trying to avoid the little voice in my head that is telling me I can’t cope with it today

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Published: January 8, 2025 10:58

“Lived experience of bipolar” over the past 24 hours has meant going to bed at 8pm due to anxiety, waking frequently until 2am, being consistently awake until 8am, having a nightmare and waking up feeling awful and having to take one of my dwindling supply…

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Published: January 8, 2025 03:27

I’ve come downstairs as I was getting frustrated tossing and turning in bed. I’ve had a snack and the cat is currently kneading my left boob

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Published: January 8, 2025 01:05

Blah, can’t sleep again

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Published: January 7, 2025 19:51

Evenings are just awful right now. I’ve kind of given up hoping to feel OK and I’m close to panic because it’s setting in so early tonight. I’m going to try to watch a film with Tom but I’m not hopeful.

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Published: January 7, 2025 17:38

As I was walking home from the dentist, it was not quite fully dark and the clear sky was indigo. Venus was very bright and there was a perfect half moon just hanging there. It felt like a precious moment

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Published: January 7, 2025 16:07

I’ve just stopped work because I have to be at the dentist in 25 minutes. My brain is full anyway! I need to get this application finished tomorrow if at all possible but I just feel that the more sections I complete, the more I find still to do… 😥

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Published: January 7, 2025 13:39

I made some great progress in my fellowship application this morning, I’m just gearing myself up for another go at explaining the need for my research, placing it with the context of the Welsh Government public health strategy. My manager’s been helping…

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Published: January 7, 2025 10:40

Run done, shower and hair wash done, next to plat with some figures for my fellowship application. I need to cost paying peer researchers for consultancy, data collection, writing up and dissemination #PhDSky #AcademicSky

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Published: January 7, 2025 09:09

Good morning, my cat is very enthusiastic about purring and kneading which is stopping me from getting things done (I’m supposed to be on a run right now). I’ve really struggled with acute anxiety over the last few evenings and it’s grinding me down, so I…

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Published: January 6, 2025 16:44

Feeling a bit stressed… I think I’ll join on online group meditation session in half an hour. Hopefully that will be grounding

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Published: January 6, 2025 16:32

One part of the NHS already makes extensive use of private provision - the inpatient mental health sector. It’s a disaster. Quality of care is not better, it’s ruinously expensive, and patients find themselves sent sometimes hundreds of miles from home to…

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Published: January 6, 2025 16:17

Oof I need a break from my fellowship application which I have been working on all day. I need to focus more on making my proposal Wales-specific. Might go back and do a bit more when I’ve pointed my eyes at something else for a bit #PhDSky #AcademicSky

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Published: January 6, 2025 07:58

Morning! I’ve got an early blood test so I’m off out in a short while. Today’s main task is to work on a fellowship application to run by my manager when she gets back tomorrow. What’s your main task for today?

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Published: January 5, 2025 20:02

Another evening of acute anxiety when it feels a struggle to find #3GoodThings 1) Downstairs is now clean and tidy after a burst of housework 2) I finished listening to The Blue Hour by Paula Hawkins, which I thoroughly enjoyed 3) Fresh bedlinen tonight I…

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Published: January 5, 2025 15:52

I’ve stripped the tree and I’m waiting for Tom to come and help me to take it out onto the driveway. The council will come and take it for recycling a week tomorrow. The Christmas cards are in the cardboard waste. Just got to take the wreath from the front…

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Published: January 5, 2025 13:19

Taking a housework break while the mopped floors dry. Tree ornaments off next.

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Published: January 5, 2025 12:06

I dreamed that I was the CEO (not the queen) of a medieval castle. I had to repel invaders PLUS go to the pharmacy to get period products to leave out for use by the castle’s inhabitants. Then I was doing some analysis of qual data on women herbalists. I…

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Published: January 5, 2025 12:01

Hello! I have a lot of housework to do today and I need to take the Christmas tree down but right now I am pinned under a purring cat so it will just have to wait. I’ve just got to get through today then I can achieve some much needed normality. No snow in…

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Published: January 5, 2025 01:50

I woke up and thought it must be about 5.30am, it was actually only 1.30 somehow? I thought for a moment it was Monday and I was looking forward to getting back to work. But no - a very meh day of cleaning and taking the Christmas tree down instead. Bah.

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Published: January 4, 2025 21:04

Feeling horribly anxious, let’s try to do #3GoodThings despite that 1) A dinner of veggies that needed using in cheese sauce turned out better than I’d expected 2) Tom lit the fire this evening 3) I had a nice long bath before putting my pyjamas on Good…

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Published: January 4, 2025 14:59

I feel very bleugh this afternoon. Bit anxious, quite sad, tired despite a nap. There’s stuff I should be doing (like a lot of cleaning) but I just want to hibernate. I’ll be OK once I get back into work mode on Monday, just got to get through taking the…

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Published: January 4, 2025 09:22

Morning! About to take Alice to the station, boo. I’ve had a super week with her but it’s gone all too quickly. She’ll be back in April and again in June, we hope. Then I have an appointment to get my nails done and that’s all I have to do today apart from…